Until It Is Gone!

I woke up with the decision to let it go, I had it while it lasted, perhaps I didn't take it seriously, I didn't treat it well and now it's gone.
There is no point brooding over what is lost or gone, it could still be there but it's not there, if that makes any sense to us.

Back forward to the days it was good, the days I felt the value coming from something and could prove the existence but now it feels different, seems different too.
I would be lying if I said I didn't expect it, it is painful. Maybe yeah, but can anything be done about that? Maybe no. And that's fine, I don't blame anyone for the way things turn out, I can only take the blame and guilt for everything said and done.

If I could, I would go back to the days I had it all, and like they say we don't know the worth of something until it is gone. I guess this is it too, I saw it coming, I knew it yet I still allowed it and this is what I get from all of the things I used to do, how badly I made things become.
It's my fault, I know it is, and I am taking the blame for everything.
And perhaps it's high time I move on and let things be the way they are.
I can't help but feel there is no point pushing because I might just get angry all over again and I don't want that. I will look away and pretend this never happened and I hope I get over all the shits and start afresh from where I left off.

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             2 October 2023