5 minute freewrite 2380 prompt manage your anger

This is my post for #freewriters 2380 prompt manage your anger hosted by @mariannewest

I wish we could go back to the old days when a Dr wanted to get bloodwork from you, he did it himself, and when he was the one who prescribed all of your medication and he was the one who scheduled all of your surgeries. One doctor did it all, why did they change things?

The other day I wrote about making the appointment for my bloodwork and getting there to be told I did not have an appointment but I am not sure if I wrote about the surgeon wanting me to get permission from the physician who writes the script to stop taking the blood thinner that I am on for 5 days before surgery. The surgeon's office tried to get me an appointment with her and was told I could not get in until sometime in June. Today I went into the doctor's office and explained what was going on and I got an appointment for tomorrow.

I called the surgeon's office and told them this and was told she had to give her permission for me to get off the blood thinner today because the lady who does the paperwork is going to be out of the office and if it is not in by today they will need to reschedule. The doctor's office said they would not do it today because I have not seen the doctor since November. Not going to a doctor used to be a good thing.

Some might say to me manage your anger, let me tell you something, it is not an easy thing to manage, no matter which doctor's office I talk to, my anger grows higher and higher. I am now to the point where I am thinking this is all a sign to not have the surgery at all.

Yesterday I had to have an EKG so the anesthesiologist would clear me to be put under, I guess I failed the test, I have something called T waves that are spiking high, they are on the third line, the ones that are taller than the rest. The lady giving me the test asked if I was having chest pains, I said no, and she asked how I felt. I said I feel fine. She said she was going to go ahead and clear me but it would still be up to the anesthesiologist. They called today and said he denied me for the surgery, so now I have to see a cardiologist. Tomorrow I have to try to make an appointment and get in to see him before the 31st of this month. I do not see me being able to get in to see him that fast, but I will give it a try. I feel my anger growing.

I am wondering if I can learn to live with the pain in my hand, I have been living with back pain for 25 years so how hard is it going to be to live with one more thing that hurts?
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