5 minute freewrite 2283 prompt justify the lie

This is my post for #freewriters 2283 prompt justify the lie hosted by @mariannewst

I feel like a bad rabbit mommy. For the last few weeks, I have wanted to take Rudy outside, he has not been outside since the day I found him when he was about a week old.

My son had this cage top and my husband said it would work to put him (Rudy not my son) under as long as I sat beside it so the dogs don't get to him. So I wrapped Rudy in his favorite t-shirt and carried him outside, he had his head sticking out like he was taking it all in. I was talking to him, telling him how much he was going to like where we were going.

He just sat there, not moving and not eating, staring at me with those beautiful brown eyes, like he was saying Mommy how do you justify the lie, I do not find this fun. My husband said he would not think it was fun either if someone woke him in the middle of his sleeping time.

I reached in to pet him and felt so bad. His little heart was racing and his body was quivering. We felt he had had enough for one day so I took him back inside where he was so happy to get back to his house.

Later my husband says, I bet when he goes back to sleep and wakes up he will think what kind of nightmare did I have, I saw things and felt things that I never knew were there.

This is Rudy's litter pan, the litter is like ground-up paper, and on the bag, it says safe for animals and in the next sentence they justify the lie by saying it should not be consumed by animals.

Well, Rudy eats it so I have been putting paper over it and poking holes in the paper, but now he has started eating or pulling the paper back to get to the litter. So today I cut a piece of wire screen to cover it, I think this will work the pee will fall through and the poo will stay on top. I had to build the corner up on the litterbox because he wants to scoot his rear end in the corner and pees over it.

**photos are mine