The Negative Sides of Me
It is very normal to hear life is a gradually process and we learn ourselves as we learn in schools. It sometimes takes a while for one to fully understand oneself. This is because human life is a journey that transcends, sometimes we wake up seeing ourselves doing exactly what we never imagined we could do. We can only get to understand ourselves better on a daily basis.
Just like we have our good sides, we also have some bad sides. Personally, I have some negative attributes that worry me. Sometimes, I try to see if I can work on myself by improving those aspects, only to try for a while and still find myself returning to these behaviors.
The first negative attribute I find difficult to fight is impatience. I practice patience, but sometimes I unconsciously lose control, like a hungry dog, leading me to make decisions I end up regretting or saying hurtful things to someone. The desire for something to happen hastily is a trait I exhibit sometimes, mostly when I'm nervous.
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For peace to reign, patience is required, and understanding is essential. When I lack the ability to control my anger, my words can end up piercing or spoiling someone else's mood, and that is an act I regret deeply afterward.
Another trait that heavily affects me is procrastination. I have tried my best to fight this trait, but I have only come to find out it sticks like an inbuilt attribute. Sometimes, I naturally find myself putting off duties until the last minute. One thing I hate is when this keeps recurring, and people start seeing me as lazy.
Sometimes, I procrastinate majorly on difficult tasks. When I find myself feeling frustrated on how to tackle a task with a deadline, I see myself shifting this task till the last minute, which results in not accomplishing it.
Even with full knowledge of measures to overcome procrastination, sometimes I find myself putting off those measures and struggling to meet deadlines. The aftermath of this doesn't end nicely, as I sometimes end up not completing all I was supposed to do before the day runs out.
When I interact with people who exhibit these attributes, I try not to be judgmental, knowing that we are not perfect in any way. I try my best to understand them, as it's something I can relate to, and I understand the struggles they face trying to fight these negative traits.
My Participation to April Edition of The Thinker's Corner Challenge.
Being impatient is a trait that triggers a lot of wrong decisions especially when we are nervous. A lot of people have experienced this firsthand, but the problem is that it's not very easy to just say "I will stop being impatient" and have it happen immediately.
It mostly takes a great deal of trial and error and even when you think you have completely divorced impatience, something unexpected can happen and steer up emotions that will cause you to be impatient again. Haha. That's also the case with procrastination.
I think the difference is always in knowing that "this isn't how I want my life to be". Once you admit that to yourself, even if you fall into a trap of impatience and procrastination, you will still be making consistent effort to completely quit that part of life.
It's good to read your entry to this edition of our challenge. Thanks so much.
Thank you so much for reading my entry, I'm truly grateful and appreciate your view.
You are right that admitting to ourselves that we don't want our lives to be controlled by negativity is the first step toward overcoming. Thanks for your nice words.