Friendship// Memories

Have you ever had someone whom you thought you were going to date at the first meeting only for you both to end up becoming good buddies?

We never know how much we miss a friend until we get to hear their voice after a long time. Just got off the phone with one of my best buddies and I must say, the feeling was ecstasy, it was divine. I couldn't help but remember the good, bad, hilarious, and funny memories we shared as friends.

How we never took our friendship to the next level while we saw each other or went intimate is one hell of a mystery to me because we practically had the connection and vibe, and we said naughty things to each other that I am not sure I have ever said to any guy.

With him, I was myself and don't have to hold back whatever naughty or annoying things I had to do or let out. It's been six or seven months since I last saw him and talking to him today was amazing.

It brought back memories of how we would go out on a stroll and talk about random things, how he usually come around when I am less busy to gist with me and most times we ended up making fun of each other, how whenever I was returning home late, I usually ask him to come out and walk me home but not without insulting me.

Days we sat to talk about our differences, our different plans or goals for the future, finances, and many other things that matter. Days we made fun of each other making people around think we were an item, when actually we never were and never will be.

Did I at any point in time love him, Yes of course! I mean, who wouldn't but I think I wasn't ready for any entanglement, so we decided to channel our feelings to just being friends and it has been an amazing journey.

I can't wait for the holidays to come around so I can go visit him, because I can not wait to see him. Thinking back now, I am not sure we would have lasted if we had gotten intimate because long distance relationship isn't one of the options for me no matter how much I love a man.

I miss my friend so much and the times we got the opportunity to see every day, I miss the times I always stop by his office to look for his trouble and the times he always asked me to go with him to places he had to meet up before the day ended.

I miss him, I miss us and I wished we could still have such a moment again.