Week 202 - What's exciting and scary about the future

Already at first it does not give a kind of existential shock 😅, and it came to me "like a ring to the finger" as they say, because without knowing it, just today a person made me a comment that left me thinking a lot about my future, more than normal because I know that it is not good to plan things so much that if there is something that we do not have sure is the future, only the "present" is the only thing that matters and the most valuable thing we have for the moment, but ... what happens when that calm perception and living day to day is affected by something external and sudden ? maybe it is not our fault for not having a planned life or maybe it is because we did not do "what should be in the time it should be"? all this under the great social pressure imposed on us women (with apologies to the men who read this), but the truth is that, just receiving comments related to "the time and the things I should have done for my age" is one of the things that scares me the most or causes me a lot of anxiety for my future, I don't know if I'm the only one but knowing or believing that I'm not keeping a rhythm in my life as expected, makes me desperate and scares me to think that because I don't feel ready or prepared for it, something is wrong with me and as a consequence, disappointing someone.

As an example and is what I've been talking about is the issue of a steady partner, getting married and having children, so far so good, but what happens when all this must be met with a date or age limit ... there is the existential dilemma 😅, because I get a mini emotional crisis if for being the age I am and not having met any of those requirements I fail as a woman, the truth is that it's ugly and disappointing much more when the person who tells you is someone close and special.

But leaving behind all the negative and because everything can not be bad either, there are things that excite me about the future, things and long-term projects that I plan to realize very soon, and because the fact of knowing that I still have a lot of time and life ahead encourages me to dream of all the many things I can do, including a long awaited reunion and which I have all the illusions and desire for everything to go well, some personal purposes such as study and improve myself in those skills that call me and I like, and well, my favorite part ... to be able to travel someday to some place in the world, to be able to travel one day to a new country, to be able to travel to a new country, to be able to live a new life, to be able to live a new life, to be able to live a new life, to be able to live a new life. ... to be able to travel someday somewhere totally new for me, either inside or outside my country, and if it is with that special person it would be a nice experience that the future (I hope very near) will allow me to live 🙏🏻😊.