Week 200 - The search for security in a difficult escape from insecurity... how do I feel about it?

I think it's hard to find someone without insecurities, and obviously I'm not the exception, uff.... I would love to tell them all (or none 😅), but I will take this initiative as if it were a kind of diary, because I sincerely believe that I would only talk about this with myself, just as I am doing it through writing, a super effective way to vent or in this case, to confess all those things that cause me insecurities, as well as the securities and how I feel about dealing with it, especially when we think about the society we live in today. That's why I think that fixing them with myself is a good option, in the end, only I decide what to do and what not to do with my life and how it affects me.

I think my answer I will share it also with the majority of women where their body causes them insecurity, either by not having the same physical stereotypes of famous models or artists with perfect measurements, as well as bad comments that certainly make us feel less, that there is something wrong with us or not as it should be, and there inevitably, along with a lot of emotions, insecurities arrive making that imaginary bar of self-esteem go down little by little, which in turn could also cause serious consequences if something is not done about it, such as seeking specialized help, to make us understand that we are perfect as we are, and that if we really want to see a physical change, we must start by fixing our interior, and if we are fine on that part, we will surely project it with the exterior.

Gaining confidence, especially because of the way I am, has cost me a little, influenced by the fact that during my growth and development, I have not been surrounded by people with the best tact, making comments that to date I do not know if they did it with or without bad intentions, but in the end, the point is that they affected me anyway. My time as a student had its good and bad things, as something normal, but I also remember those bad moments where certain actions of others towards me caused me many insecurities, one day I decided to ignore them because I did not want to give them an importance they did not have or rather did not deserve, or at least that my welfare would not be affected. Obviously the process was not easy, even today in my adulthood stage it still is, but something I will never forget and I will try to do to gain and maintain my security is to put myself first before anything else, and if something external affects me, I move away from it, now, if there is something I can change in me to help strengthen those securities or what I believe are my skills and strengths, it is also a good idea, that's what I do and I highly recommend it to anyone who needs it and see it 😊.