A Pathetic Event

It's so pathetic what happened to me today. I had asked my students to come for lessons yet again after the rain that disturbed the lesson two weeks ago. I always have lessons every Saturday and this last Saturday was supposed to be superb. Furthermore, I was praying seriously for the weather to remain bright. Likewise, I seriously prayed at night before sleeping, just to tell you how badly I needed the money. To my surprise, God answered my prayers. The day started with the sun, just like what I had prayed for.

Yan Krukau

I was so happy to the extent of going to meet that woman I was owing to please be calm. I told her I would be paying her today by the grace of God. She said, “Hope you are not going to fail me just like two weeks ago?”
I can't fail you as I will be coming home today with nothing less than #6,000 (about $6 to $7). I even collected other items on credit just to prepare before leaving the house. She was so glad to give me those items based on trust. After filling up my stomach, I dashed into the breeze with joy all over my face, just like someone who was ready to take or had won a jackpot.

I got to the school thinking I would meet a multitude of students, but to my surprise, just a few came. I saw just a selected number of them. Likewise, I got angry at a point, but one of the students said, “Let's still wait for them a bit before starting. They may still come”. He started calling them one after the other, just to make sure they came around. I was still hoping, but my hope was fading as no one was coming, and it was time to start the lesson.

I decided to start with the five students who came around. Immediately I started, two entered. This got my hope and morale back again. I had been teaching for about twenty minutes and did not see anyone coming around. I got pissed off and was left with no hope. Not only that, but I began to remember the promises I had made to the woman I bought items from. “How would I be able to pay her”, was the question left on my mind. I was derailed and confused. I was hoping to get about #6,000, but my hope has been shattered.

Instead of #6000 and above, I got just #700, which was not up to my transportation fees. In anger, I was teaching out of my mind as the only thing left on my mind was how to pay that woman.

I didn't know whether to take the back route or to go and tell her what I had faced, but then, my money was piling up. I'm doomed, and I have no idea what to do. In short, the way I sat students who came for the lesson started asking me if something was wrong. I just sat, helpless and hopeless. It's as if someone had used a hammer to wipe my back, as I was unable to stand up right now.