Half Awake In The Reality
Life's so strange that I couldn't even understand what is real and what's a fantasy anymore. Sometimes I could hear sounds that nobody could hear, most of the times I thought that it's just my mistake in hearing things clearly. But now I realise that it's not just some hallucinations.
A month before that thing or that woman came in my dream and talked to me, I can't completely say it's a woman. I am sure that it's not a man, It's why I referred it between a thing and a woman. We could call her the Dreamia, Dreamia sounded like a woman but her appearance was just of the box, a box in blue colour. Yeah, she's a box.
Am I being stupid, comparing a box with a woman? But one thing is sure that she had a sound far better than the most woman I've ever seen. The words that came out of her was mature, but the voice is that of a young girl, a girl at her teenage. I had a crush on her voice, just the voice.
After that wherever I was, she was always with me. Whenever someone talks, I had to listen to them and also listen to her opinion on it before responding. Someway I became some kind of body that she uses to share her thoughts to the world. The minute I found out this, I made some changes in the whole thing. I told her to only come back when I was sleeping. I don't want her in the daylights.
I knew that it was hard for her, but I forced her to stay away for a while. So the thing was going pretty well, she only comes in the night and talks to me about things that happened each day. Then I found out that, even when she is'not sharing the opinion, she was listening to all those things I've been listening to.
I still remember that day, it was a kind of very bad day for me. I was totally upset with some clashes I had with my friends, so when I reached my bed, all I wanted was sleep. But she started whispering in my head about the things she wanted to talk to. I was totally angry and I insulted her. I told her that she doesn't even exist, and she is just a box. My whole anger was shown upon her.
When I woke up the next day, I was feeling some change. There's some difference, I always felt some kind of presence of her when she was with me. But now I am not feeling it anymore. Dreamia left me. The only one I had to talk about my problems is gone, that's the moment I felt completely alone.
After that there was no news of her, I didn't know where to find her or how to make her come back. I was totally depressed. Last night something different happened, I saw her. She's just the same, blue in colour and the boxy shape. Only one thing was different, she's not talking anymore.
