Aihtnyc's (5)

Suicide on my birthday was one of my deepest fantasies. Isn't it shocking? That's how I feel when I'm in a good mood. But most of the time, I'm going through a rough patch. I'm losing confidence day by day.

I'm not sure where to start with my pain or whether I should share it. I'm not sure if you'll pass judgment on me. Let's not get into my discomfort. Let's talk about how many of you are experiencing this pain as well.

The agony of not being able to wake up in the morning? Or should I just give up? Personally, I despise that phrase. Have faith in me. This is a word that irritates me greatly. But I don't have any light in my life.

Please tell me how you got through that dark period. How did you win after failing so many times? I have no intention of encouraging you to end your lives. Rather, I believe we should discuss this. Together! We must learn to appreciate ourselves. I don't feel like loving myself. But I'm hoping to change. I'm hoping that my life will improve. For a long time, I had struggled to find happiness in my life. Bad things happened to me all the time. I'm simply exhausted.

Tell me what you'd do in this situation. I'm not going to say much. Perhaps you will be bored or ignored. But I felt compelled to speak. We should talk about it. People in pain, like us, should start talking and sharing our feelings. Please forgive me if I said anything incorrectly.

I want to breathe again like I used to do when I was small and stress free 😔. I want to feel alive again !

Please give me your thoughts, good or bad. And please pray for me. ❤️